being lost

to be lost is to be fully present, and to be fully present is to be capable of being in uncertainty

– Solnit, R. (2005). A Field Guide to Getting Lost. Edinburgh, Scotland: Canongate Books, p. 6

Ruthlessly stolen from Carolyn Roy without her permission (who cited Solnit in some of her own writing), but I thought it might be useful given this stage of your thinking, practicing.